Hinterland

Hinterland: An Epilogue

Hinterland: An Epilogue

It has taken me thousands of words and an entire month to figure out what to say about Hinterland coming to an end. By the way, Hinterland is coming to an end. This is a thing you wouldn’t be aware of because I stopped writing here. More on that later.

Here is the moral of the story: I wanted Hinterland to be something it wasn’t. I wanted it to be the new life of spring or the pure joy of summer or the abundance of fall. I did not want it to be winter.

Hinterland was the truest form of Continue reading

Tell me something good

Tell me something good

Let’s start with the obvious: things have been pretty somber around here lately. A quick perusal of recent topics unearths such joys as shoulder tension, paralyzing questions, and lost dogs. AKA: Pure delight. I was trying to remember the last happy thing/funny story I told on the blog and had to roll all the way back to that one time I accidentally made a bomb. In October.

All I can say is that this blog tends to reflect the tone of my life and the recent tone of my life has been pretty somber. But good … Continue reading

Hinterland, Six Months In: It’s been real

Hinterland, Six Months In: It’s been real

I realize this is a controversial thing to say during the first days of spring in a northern climate… but we got about 10 inches of snow last week—our biggest snowfall all winter—and I loved every bit of it. I grew up in upstate NY, people. I love snow like Floridians love sunshine. It’s the part of my DNA that quietly weeps through the handful of “snow storms” we get every year in central Pennsylvania.

So the next day, when the snow was still stunning and the skies were blue and the sun was shining, Jenny and I decided to … Continue reading

Fact checking

Fact checking

I’ve been doing this Hinterland thing for five months now. (Let’s all mark our calendars for the inevitable breakdown that will occur when we arrive at the six month mark and I freak out about not achieving every goal I’ve ever had in life. It’ll be fun!) Whenever I run into someone who knows a bit about what I’m up to these days, they ask, “So, are you enjoying that?” And to almost everyone, I offer the same response: “Kind of!”

I’m not jumping up and down about it. I’m not walking around in sackcloth and ashes. I’m in … Continue reading

Quieting the question factory

Quieting the question factory

Remember when I proclaimed February as the month of Fear/Worry/Robotic Shoulder Tension? I thought I was going to write about the solutions—things like yoga and prayer and walking more than 2,000 steps a day. But as it turns out, I’m going to start by writing about one of the problems.

Surprisingly, one of the problems is writing.

Sometimes writing feels like being on Oprah when she gives away the cars and the vacations and the elixirs that make you look 18 again. But most other times, writing feels like running a self-indulgent marathon. In the Sahara. In a parka.

And … Continue reading

A confession, an update

A confession, an update

First, a confession.

I wrote a whole blog post about letting go and in that blog post, I used the illustration of hanging onto your Christmas tree for too long. I knew when I wrote it that it was a really bad idea to use that analogy because I adored our Christmas tree this year.

Which is why I am currently sitting on the couch, starring at our Christmas tree… on January 28th. She’s been camped out in the living room for nearly two entire months and is looking more and more like a shriveled up tree ghost every day.… Continue reading

Hinterland 2018: Party like a Puritan

Hinterland 2018: Party like a Puritan

About a year and a half ago I decided to move out of my modest-yet-endearing apartment with wood floors and gigantic windows and ceilings higher than a kite and into a house in the city with friends. Moving from many years of living alone and into a room that is smaller than any dorm room I’ve ever occupied seemed mostly crazy at first. The next logical move would have been to buy a house, not move back down the adulthood ladder from living independently to living with roommates. Also, I had stuff. It wasn’t wedding present caliber stuff; it … Continue reading

Hinterland, Week Thirteen: Letting go

Hinterland, Week Thirteen: Letting go

Here we are at the very end of 2017.

I’m not great at embracing change, and I’m especially bad at endings, so you can imagine how much I dislike transitioning from one year to the next. I usually cling to the last few days of a year as if they were the last drops of water at the bottom of a barrel in the middle of the desert. But along with 99% of the world’s population, I will not be sorry to see 2017 come to an end today. Bye, Felicia. Don’t let the door hit you on the way … Continue reading